( come bearing gifts )

th//de//14//00 06:16 p.m.
yeah...quick update. I added 3 links to the 'dirty fun' section on your right. The first is an essay about children of the 80's that i found, the second is this strange british site about weird british children shows [and some that i recognize that were available here in north america] of yesteryear, and the third is the suddenly popular online mash.

*cough**cough**ahem*andonyourleftismyamazon.comwishlist*cough*cough**ahem* which stupidly enough includes, like my address...so umm, go ahead and stalk me anyone who feels up to the task!

oh, and new gbook design. and as it's been pointed out, yes the gbook is now a complete and utter tit emporium...

have to go study chem....shite...pray for snow,
/colleen, the girl who is all studied out yet really hasn't done much studying due to her scandalously short attention span.

fr//de//1//00 09:15 p.m.
hello! i am still alive. yes yes. *checks pulse* erm...well, slowly but surely, my black heart is doing it's damndest to struggle on. slow and steady wins the race! [and then collapses at the finish line with an asthma attack. heh.]

listen, i am like, stupid busy. the net is at the bottom of my list of things to do. i worked 11 hours this week, and you know what? i'm not feeling any exam pressure. no...because exams are second from the bottom of my list of things to do. i can't concentrate on exams until next weekend, after i trek through a mother fucking mountain of assignments all due conveniently next week. it's honestly nauseating. i'm not sure if i can pull it off. especially when i work next wednesday for 5 hours! which is my mother's birthday for christ's sake! today alone, i had my term art project due, a chem quiz [which i purposely got a 2 out of 20 on, cos he said he would give us 2 polyatomic ion quizzes and then record the better mark. i looked at the first 2 on the sheet and memorised those. and that's where my 2 points came from...] and an 86 question english factual test on animal farm. i left 15 blanks on that sucker. he said however, that he will need ppl from our advanced class to help him mark the regular english ppl's tests on monday, and if you volunteer, he won't start taking points off your test until your 11th one wrong. now, all i have to do is show up monday to correct same damn tests....which should be painstaking...

on monday, daily notes are due in english. on friday, our english ap work and weird list thingies are due, as well as the history project [which is: make a dictionary using the 30 words/terms/people he gave us. to inlude 4 visuals. suck. we did one last year. this is annoying.]notice it's all for english? you did? are you wondering to yourself 'does her teacher smoke the crack a bit too much?' the answer is yes. are you wondering 'wow, i guess advanced english is significantly harder than regular grade 11 english if she has all this work and the regular classes don't' eh, somewhat. i admit the ap shit is for the advanced classes in place of an exam, but they have to do the rest of it. you must be wondering 'gee, he assigns so much homework, what exactly do they DO in class?' and the answer is: listen to the crackhead ramble ramble ramble... motherFUCKER...mr. penny, why did we spend 3 weeks watching the disney sleepy hollow and dissecting it? when we're supposed to be doing animal farm and instead you took up most of the term doing that so now a week before exams we have 10 million things to do for you since we don't have any marks for the 2nd half of the midterm? it's called time management mr. pennyloafers....LOOK IT UP.

hmmm...any bright side? uhhh....i bought my mom's xmas gift from james and i tonight. so now, all i have left is mom's stocking, alex, my psycho-jello secret santa, and my secret santa at work. and some cards probably for ppl at school or sumpin. blah. i'm sure no one wants to hear me rant about my damn homework.

like monkies in outer space we are members of the human race,
/colleen the absentee

thno2300 03:06 p.m.
no school tomorrow. ahhh. but i work. but i might not! but i definitely work saturday. yeah. i might take a little brother of mine to the mall tonight to have him point me out what he wants for xmas. he made the stupidest xmas list and put crap on there neither my mother nor i are willing to spend money on for him. silly boy. i will also be shopping for Alex [what do you want? bahhh....why the brain freeze?] and my psycho-jello secret santa whom i will not disclose at this time. (no, i didn't just have a factual test about Animal Farm in english today and get a 16 out of 15, but i heard you were. [mr. penny is such a crackhead....)

...and i'm listening to fiona apple's first cd for the first time in awhile. ahhh. and suddenly amanda calls me 'pookie', now how's that for mushy? it still puzzles me everytime she says it, and she's been saying it since tuesday. heh. usually i try to retort with something so totally clever like "ok...vegetarian lasagne!" which now that i think of it, makes no sense. but neither does pookie so we're even. it ahs something to do with garfield, because i insist pookie is a character from garfield and garfield eats lasagne and amanda doesn't since she's veggie. and also in grade 9 when we went on the band trip to the dinner theatre, nothing on the menu was vegetarian, so they cooked amanda a special vegetarian lasagne, and she was so touched that they would. but it was big, and she couldn't finish it. she felt incredibly bad since they made it special so she hid some of it under some bread on my plate. heh. and i'm going to drag out madame le guillotine and behead our newspaper nazis. today, in the newspaper room, i had my blur cd because i wanted everyone to hear mr. robinson's quango. i wasn't allowed to cos, jonathon was listening to something on the computer. sometimes there's a tv and vcr in the newpaper room so i asked if we could watch this tape of the 'made in england' much music special that alex taped for me and just handed to me today. no. we couldn't. because jonathon was watching a tape of wrestling on mute why was it muted? because he was doing something on the computer with music playing! so who was watching this wrestling? not justin, assistant nazi, cos he was playing some game on jon's calculator [yes...calculator]. so cherakee and jake made faux electronica music and like, fondled each other. amanda furiously tried to locate songs on her new mixtape [which is severly hard when you're using a walkman with fast forward only. i know cos i actually used to have the exact same walkman...] and i sat there and worried about people seeing my arm!

i will try to do some mixtapes and jamie's collage. i will try to clean my room and strip my bed because i have bites all up my left arm and i tried to hide it from people at school all day by keeping my coat on because the bites look like trackmarks and i don't want people to think i'm some smackhead junkie. no that would definitely not be good. and i also hope to do daily notes, english ap work, amanda's zine, my tiffany and toronto essay, and redo my art project. and maybe i should do my weekend family chores like clean the upstairs bathroom and kitchen floor, which i haven't done since, like, september...and things are pretty nasty now, and the bathroom should be condemned. yuck.

enjoy fredericton, alex. if you see my dad wandering the street squinting and confused, give him a hand. if you see my sister the college drunkard passed out in a gutter somewhere, kindly roll her over so she won't choke on her vomit. buy yourself a great semi-formal dress and me a kickass xmas gift!

regent mall is the centre of the universe,
/colleen.

weno2200 06:33 p.m.
it had to change. i didn't want it to change! but it had to change. there's my inspiring life metaphor of the day, but i'm actually, MERELY talking about my damn pita layout. and of course, new layout=new tale of fucking woe. damn, why do i always have a mile long uninteresting story to tell? i need to edit myself. hire me a fucking editor someone...an editor who will sit beside me for the rest of my life and tell me to SHUT_UP. [and to stop making so many runon sentences goddamnit!...]

ok, so i liked the last layout. it made me think of that smashing pumpkins song from melenchollie that's name momentarily escapes me that goes ..."cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow to cast divine arrows...." blah. so then i got around to having a look at my harddrive to see what i have for snogged pictures. i piled them together and uploaded them and asked amanda her opinion. she said 2 of them were sexylicious but i don't believe her. and for some reason the kiss from 'from here to eternity' has been in my head. i've never even seen the movie, but i know this kiss is famous and WAS shocking for it's time. i love that still and i cut it out of a magazine. so i decided to hunt down the still on the net and make it into something bootylicious. well...it's not quite bootylicious, but it's going to have to do. and i guess as you can see to your left, i have put out a call for ideas. aide moi, s.v.p.

no school friday! but i work. and i will leave with this, a photo i stumbled upon the other day. it's gaz of supergrass, my betrothed. and it's both sexy and terrifying. i c i

/colleen.