weap1801 08:01 p.m.
i'm STILL on the net searching for pictures of tornados for my art independant study. suck.

speaking of art...yesterday we had the coolest art substitute. everyone liked her except needy little amanda [barg. amanda said to me AND I QUOTE "she didn't pay me enough attention...she paid more attention to cherakee.." hehe. our table in art is like the world capital of jeolousy and silent fighting...] actually i thought the way she told cherakee that she couldn't paint like the way she was doing or she wouldn't get into art school wasn't very cher-positive. and as for me...she asked what i was doing and i said "a puffin..." and then paused cos i knew it didn't LOOK like afreakin' puffin "...it's art nouveau..." and then she said something that was probably harmless but i thought she was mocking me. lord...we're all so sensitive with our art! we sit down at that table and like...we're suddenly vulnerable! ANYWAY..today was back to nasal judgemental steal your pencil whitelaw. and iw as alone at our table cos cher and amanda were off painting their mural-ma-jig [which whitelaw suggested...which i SO noticed she didn't suggest i join in.] and who knows where angela was. at any rate the whole point i am trying to make is: she didn't come around once. she always circles see, which i DON'T like but she just came over as i sat down [i was late..the whole locked out of the house fiasco] to see if i was down my puffins and then she came back to give me the sheet on our independant study. and i didn't see her again the ENTIRE class...and i was like "why isn't she coming over here?" i'd see her get close and then she'd verr off and start her circle over again. and then i friggin' well realised: it was just me at the table...there was no need to come over. all the crown jewels were away, and she didn't feel like visiting the cubic zirconia underling. colleen dislikes being the artjoke at her art table. sniff. however...it is much better than the slutz n' gigglez table, which is where i sat in september.

weap1801 07:08 p.m.
yes i have homework. but i forgot something:
today in drama, the teacher dumped a bunch of potential monologues on a table and had us sift throught them to find any we liked for our monologue show. i took a look. they were pretty crappy. i divided them into 2 categories: the corny ones, and the pseudio-angsty corny ones. it was all very leave it to beaver...but some of them were 'leave it to beaver...IN THE PSYCH WARD'. yeah. you were supposed to put your name on the ones you were interested in. at the end of the class i went to the table under the pretense of looking for my own [i knew before she handed them out i'd do a movie or a book], and checked out who put their name on what...amanda wants to do one about not feeling beautiful, cherakee wants to do one about food, and jake wants to do one about a bitter has been actor. i thought they were all very telling. especially: this guy mike wanted to do one that's very very angry, where he says that he wants to choke people sometimes, the ones that chide him for messing up or going slow...being clumsy w/ his hands etc...mike, i should mention, is diabetic and blind and has no friends and from what i can tell an extremely depressed person. and what does colleen want to do? something with a lot of swearing. aim for the sky colleen...

any way...my POINT was: i don't have any intention of delivering a monologue that sounds like it's from 'Monologues With Dick and Jane'...or even worse 'How To Kill Youself With Dick and Jane'. i want to do a monologue from fight club. or virgin suicides. i could learn german and do run lola run or bandits...but that would be what's called a "make work project". does anyone know where i could find some movie monologues, especially from those i jsut listed? email me. please.

i just took an hour long walk. sort of in the graveyard [i fell. ouch.], but then i went to the park. swinging makes me nautious. why was it fun as a child? i don't ever recall it making me nausious. same with themepark rides. they jsut make you ill the older you get. why is that? damn. if only i could spell 'nauseas' instead of being it...

and i haven't been posting @ the refugee camp, sorry. on sunday dad downloaded a newer version of IE...and all the palces where i'd clicked 'save my password' no longer save my password. and i tried to get my password emailed to me. but it won't come. erg.

weap1801 03:38 p.m.
so. 2 people have now tried to convince me to join the cult of livejournal. which has only strengthed my resolve: my ass is not leaving pitas. i asked amanda what was socool about these livejournals...i mean, you can't customize them! but she enjoys filling in her music and mood. snort. i can do that on my own, regarde:
listening to: things have changed -bob dylan
mood:sucky. grumpy. angry. hungry. [the 4 dwarves....]

how do i get all my mp6's onto my winamp w/o doing it manually? amanda knows a way. a way i have forgotten. once again, like an idiot i strated pushing buttons and somehow ended up with my entire c drive on there. 500 some files. that will not do.

ok. that was just all wrong back there...mp6's? yes. i have mp6's. becuase my music is twice the man yours will ever be.

it's so sad. napster has lost all it's appeal already. now that i have winamp...i have discarded napster like a lover that went flabby.

i meant to post this yesterday, but i forgot. monday night i made a list of the 5 cds i needed to buy next. and they are:
1)jj72- self titled
2)stereophonics- performance and cocktails
3)the super furry animals- mwng
4)the dandy warhols- 13 tales from urban bohemia
5)the new pornographers- mass romantic
RUNNER UP: Hawksley Workman- for him and the girls.
and because it's not out yet it's not quite on the list but it's wanted muchly: the gorillaz album!
-oh and believe me watching amanda swap ellen her copy of 13 tales for ellen's performance and cocktails brought a tear to my eye. and then moments later a grimace to my lips as i recalled asking them each on seperate occasions [both within moments of learning they had both had said cds] to borrow their respective cds. oh sniff. i get so jeolous when i see so much good music in hands other than my own. i don't mind being a brat about music...

and holy...speaking of: robin is such a sweetheart. she EMAILED me [hooray! email!] because my stupid gbook is eating posts [stupid motherfuckin'..that's it! i am now taking suggestions for a different gbook place. free and wholly customizable is what i require...] and because she has offered to burn me a copy of p.j's "to bring you my love"!!! that totally made my day. it made up for the being locked out, the snow, the cds, the drama melodrama...everything.

oh right: it snowed today, my drama video project is an expresstrain to hell that is gathering speed, and mum accidently locked us out of the house at lunch. so i didn't eat until 3. almost an ENTIRE box of kraft dinner. how gluttonous...but it was the first time i had eaten since yesterday evening.

i am throwing alex a birthday party this weekend. yeah somewhere in between the working and movie seeing and the brunch i have to go to for work. today alex gave me the book she's been trying to get me to read since reading it herself. it's 800+ pages. which is no problem for me...FINDING TIME TO READ IT is the probelm. i may give my books to my mom so that i can concentrate on my burgeoning workload. i missed so much last week while sick.

i scanned ebay and found a picture of my 'the face' mag that arrived yesterday:
meow, huh? i can't find a website for 'the face' and i desperately want more issues! damon was on the cover once and it was SUCH an awesome cover...

tuap1701 07:33 p.m.
hello dears. this is amanda talking - taking over snogged at colleen's house. mwahaha. she wanted to share with the world that she in fact, just found a gorillaz skin for winamp. i know, i know, this is quite thrilling. also, i think that everyone should venture on over to this place and be sure to check out the fashion pages. we aren't really sure what this guy is on, or if he is in fact a pedophile, but.. . it's pretty distrubing.

tuap1701 05:06 p.m.
that's what comes about when you push buttons. sigh:

so...giving into my undeniable urge to have my mps_in_alphabetical_order, i pressed something like 'sort' and poof! gone were the mp3s. they were still on my harddrive. but if you look me up on napster it appears i have 7 mp3s. whoopsies! and only a week or so after asking jamie what a 'winamp' was...amanda has directed me to the proper location, and i have followed the proper instructions and downloaded me one of 'em. and then the search for skins began. for about 30.5 seconds i had the blur 'milkcarton' one. now, like the biggest duke in the universe that i am NOT, i have an angelina jolie one. they have proven to be pretty cool. cos the place to listen to mp3s on napster was sorta shite. if i typed or moved my mouse a milimetre then it would skip and hiccup.

berg. i_forgot_waht_i_was_going_to_say. it happens alll the time.

oh yea! i got my copy of 'the face' w/ gaz on zee cover. the pictures are so beautiful. the interview is sort of not. gaz comes off as an airhead. danny is mad at him for being an airhead. and gaz's girlfriend's name is jools. which is so wrong. jools coombes? never in a million years would a girl consent to be called that. that's as bad as bjork yorke...

so here is my happyhappyfunmp3 list as of late 9sorry for repeats): 1)'post script', 'bleed' and 'dead from the waist down' by catatonia
2)supergrass vs. ali g (a clip from his show where he "remixes" sun hits the sky live,...it's like he pulls the rug right out from underneath him...)
3)'condition', 'out of the blue' 'you'll never walk again' and 'mary-acoustic' by supergrass
4) pick a part that's new by the stereophonics
5) enfilade by at the drive in ("hello mother leopard...")
6)downtown by petula clark
7)the pyramid song by radiohead (hehe...puttin' the 'e' in illegal...)
8) daddy's gettting married by bif naked
9) basically anything from the bandits soundtrack
11)'no sissies' and 'striptease' by hawksley workmen
12)'elizabeth on the bathroom floor' and 'p.s. you rock my world' by the eels
13)'algeria' and 'oxygen' by jj72
14)'execution day', 'the mary amrtin show' and 'slow desent into alcoholism' by the new pornographers
15)'i wanna be your joey ramone' by sleater kinney
and as for music i've PAID for: try 'dry the rain' and 'needles in my eyes' by the beta band.

ok that was a futile exercise. there's more, but i jsut had to stop...i was basically listing ALL my mp3s. i'm a retard.

but yes, that does remind me: i downloaded 'i wanna be your joey ramon' on the day of the dude's death. why am i exorably linked to SO many celebrity deaths!

first class this afternoon my name was announced over the p.a. [this only happens ONCE a freakin' year] cherakee and i and a bunch of others had to go rite this random provincial math exam. i did NOT want to sepnd 3 hours doing that..but at that exact moment that the p.a. came on, someon in my history class must've farted or SOMETHING cos this awful, awful stench permeated the classroom just as i collected my backpack and fled. the fart made the math exam look GOOD.

now, i don't know what to think. i am quite in awe of what stephen malkmus has done with pavement. and everybody says his new stuff is good. and jamie worsips him..so he must be cool, right? well. then he went and was very VERY mean to blur. ATROCIOUSly mean! i'm afraid i'm going to have to dislike him. my sincerst apologies to jamie. but a blurfan's gotta do what a blurfan's gotta do...

i realise i have yet to tell the tale of my bithday celebrations. [hell. i enver did get around to listing what i did during march break.] this is not because i did not have bucketfulls of fun. it is because whenever the thought of said task crosses my wee addled mind it starts to hurt.i am the queen of long stories...but...they start to become scary and daunting after awhile. perhaps l'il miss verbal diarrhea is finally out of breath? colleen longwinded finally out of wind? snort. never.

my name's elizabeth, my life is shit and piss:
/leen.

moap1601 05:56 p.m.
BLOW was soooooo fabulous. in fact i was sitting in the theatre plotting to own it on video. it was the weirdest thing. the whole entire time i was there i was giddy to buy it! of coure it won't be out for AWHILE...but holy gosh: so_good. i am so proud of franka. ...and johnny, and even penelope to some extent [her part was freakin' tiny. she shouldn't have gotten billing over my franka.] but mostly i'm proud of franka, for being a german and flawlessly playing a california valley girl, for speaking not just PERFECT english [i'd say i heard 0.4% german accent...but i was straining to hear one, and i was probably the only one in the theatre who realised she was german and/or lola from run lol run], but english in a valley girl accent...i was afraid i wouldn't recognize her without her cuckoo's egg red 'lola' hair...but i did. it took me a second. oh lord. good_movie. i WILL own it. even just for johhny's hair. there's this one scene where he's walking in slow motion w/ his cool sevs hair in his cool sevs clothes to cool sevs music...it was ...er...cool. but cool is an understatement. and even penelope cruz did a decent job.

i shouldn't have gone to a movie seeing as i still have homework [and 10 million other things i COULD be doing...like daily notes, mixtapes, cleaning my pigstye, finishing the driving book...] but i don't muchly care. today is a holiday. after the movie i zipped into future shop to spend the $20 granny and grampy sent for my birthday. i decided i wanted the jj72 album the most, and failing that performance and cocktails by the sterophonics [downloaded a bunch last night...]. however, the jj72 album was not in existance and performance was $22 [i don't THINK so...] i decided to get something i couldn't get in bridgewater [i may be able to get 'performance...' in bridgewater] or can't get in bridgewater for a decent price. it was between sarah harmer's cd [16.99], catatonia's cd [21.99],annnddd...thirteen tales from urban bohemia [19.99]. i was so frickin' conflicted. i prolly couldn't get catatonia or urban bohemia in bridgewater. then i spotted the beta band's 'the 3 eps' for $22.99. i knew i couldn't get that in bridgewater [if at all...] for less than $25...so i got that. the cd art is FANTASTIC. and i felt instantly gratified once i put it in the cd player in the car coming home and i heard the first song 'dry the rain'. it's an awesome song. go download it. but THEN...the cd sort of went downhill from there. for every 2 proper songs there's 2 wankerartnoise one's. and i had a headache. but...maybe i need to listen to it some more.

suap1501 11:38 p.m.
you know i was just thinking about this a day or so ago? i wondered how diaryland could stand it. i wondered when diaryland was going to collapse from the pure weight of the ANGST stored in it's servers. who's seen/read the green mile? you know when john coffey holds in all the 'evil'? those little bugs? allll the badness? and when he kept it inside him it made him sick? well that's how i picture the diaryland computers....just rotting away from the inside due to all the bile and battery acid they must contend with daily. but it appears the poor 'ol diaryland comps are getting a well deserved break, now that it seems everyone is making a huge exodus for livejournal [and by everyone i mean kimberly. cos everyone's sure to follow.].

but what the fuck do i care? since when do i pay attention to internet trends? look at me! here on my pita [which was SO last march....ask me if care, retards....]...i have no idea why i stay on this thing. there's no real reason for me to. however, there's no real reason for me to go, either. besides the fact that it's hideously uncool. and it's a little late for me to start being cool now, isn't it?...i'm way behind the class. i think i'll accept my life as a mcdonald's frie maker in the grand scheme of cool. shrug. whatever, i like stripes....

saap1401 11:57 p.m.
"folie_a_deux: you're like a kid in a candy store aren't you?
madamelaguillotine: (11:52 PM) actually i'm like an addict in a crack den...but that's another story....
folie_a_deux: (11:52 PM) potato, potatoe"

and THEN alex has the nerve to make fun of some of the more dorkier items on my list. and this is the girl who hopes to receive a colin JAMES cd tomorrow for easter. HA! (buuurrrnnn! diiiiisssss!)

oh wait. it is tomorrow. it IS easter. i am such a junkie...

saap1401 11:43 p.m.
holy heck. i just stood up forgetting i had a balloon attached to my thigh and wrapped around the chair. there was an incident and i jsut about dragged myself and the computer hair down the stairs....
GIRL DIES AS A RESULT OF NAPSTER INDUCED COMA, CHAIR/HELIUM BALLOON ACCIDENT;

oh save me. i've jsut discover i can customize my colour settings! it's better than disneyland here!

saap1401 11:16 p.m.
i forgot about making the band last night! barg. comments? plenty. but now i don't remember any of them. i'll have to ask alex for a transcript of our catty comments. the new video is retarded. and this season they have them in front of a very VERY obvious bluescreen. as alex pointed out, it looks like someone took a black sharpie and outlined all the chippies, er i mean band members.

for the record, i don't like o town or pop music. but the show is hysterical. they illustrate every anti-pop argument outthere...practically hand over evidence to the d.a!

but next week! oooh! jacob is too 'rock'! meaning...he doesn't sound like he's been chewin' babypowder and mainlinin'insulin.

arg. why has my napster stopped doing it's random playlist thing? it's prolly very very tired. overheated maybe. this would be a good time to quit, take a shower [that i need DESPERATELY] and wrap my easter gifts. but amanda's come online. and i must do a search for gaz coombes...

saap1401 11:05 p.m.
notice to those attempting to download off me from napster: your list is subject to my scrutiny, and should your list of songs indicate to me that you suck as a person i'm cutting you off.

o. my. god. i've had napster like...6 hours. and i already have 40 files. is this as excessively wrong as it feels?

saap1401 10:39 p.m.
perhaps it's conceited of me to think so...but i believe i just may have the best playlist on all of napster.

but i suppose every napster user thinks that. le sigh. how will i ever convince them?

ok do a search for neil young and NOTHING comes up. i want razorlove. i've been fairly successful save for the neil young and a chunk of supergrass rarities and b sides.

everyone send me their napster names, alrighty? laura? jamie? sarah? everyone? anyone who reads this and thinks i'm cool? anyone who reads this and thinks i'm a twat?

fun listening: you'll never walk again by supergrass. sample lyric: "come and have a go if you think you're hard enough/ you're going home in a foreign ambulance/ come and have a go if you think you're hard enough/you're going to get your fucking head kicked in." actually, that's the entire song. repeated over and over again. now...you'd think thsi would be a loud angry hellish song would you not? au contraire. it's the mellowest thing i've EVER heard. haha supergrass...i love you.

my computer has a crush on radiohead. i have it on random but it_won't_stop_returning_to_radiohead.garg.

shit. i just thought of something to download. then forgot again. curse this alzheimer's....

saap1401 10:01 p.m.
i'm sitting here with a purple helium balloon tied to my left thigh.

and now it's colleen's happyfunchildhoodstorytimetheatre.
once upon a time in the 80's, little leenie was at a community fair in scarborough. helium balloons were everywhere. little leenie went to get one. all the sneaky little children were asking the balloon giver-outer not to tie the balloons [so they could suck the helium of course, criminal mastermind children]. little leenie was either not too bright or just did not have the capacity to be sneaky, because she turned to her mother and asked if she could ask for an untied balloon instead of doing it while mum was not looking. mother said 'no' as if it were the most ridiculous thing i had done or said since....that morning, probably. why not? i demanded. 'because,' my mother fussed, 'it's bad for your brain...' WELL...how was i supposed to argue with that? i didn't. until midway thru the 90's. we were in bridgewater. i came across this ancient helium balloon. being quite a bit older...i opened it right up and sucked on it. i am way past 10 at this point, and becoming immune to mother's logic and doing stupid stupid things as every adolescent is want to do. i figure since this balloon is extremely weak it cannot erode my brain that badly. the helium sort of works on my voice, enough to entertain my little brothers at least. as if the helium swirling around in my brain hisses the answer in my ear, the gears begin to crank and i slowly form a query directed at mom: "mom?...didn't you once tell me helium was bad for the brain?...i don't fell any different..." and as i trail off i notice mom's smirk. "helium's not bad for your brain colleen...." well then, if i wouldn't have come to any harm sucking on helium, than whyever did she stop me that day?

"because. it was silly...."

but this is from the woman who told my sister she could see through walls, and would know when kathryn was misbehaving.

saap1401 09:33 p.m.
okay. yep. i NEED the jj72 album. no question.

i just took an hour there to play Harry Potter clue. it was my 3rd clue, or clue related game this week...and guess how many clu or clue related games i've won this week? 3. i am Clue's B I T C H.

hot song downlaods: supergrass- out of the blue
jj72- fresh water
jj72- oxygen
radiohead- the pyramid song

this may or maynot conclude the special allnight 'just downloaded napster' snogged broadcast.

saap1401 08:23 p.m.
okay...i know i'm a little late but i needed JJ72. i successfully have napster. i had it last februaury but let's face it, napster w/o a cable connection is jsut fuckin' pointless.. NOW EVERYONE WATCH NAPSTER FOLD T O M O R R O W. yeah. so i will drive everyone nuts in the next little while w/ my wild napster discoveries. i am 'madamelaguillotine'. first napster query:
a) anyone know who sings a song called Who Sucked Out The Feeling? cos it SAYS supergrass...but it is so not supergrass. but yet it's really really cool.

20 foot halo by supergrass is a messed messed song.
and i have downloaded a few of the new radiohead. for amanda's sake. she won't listen to them. but i can tell ehr what they're like. i reason i'm being a good friend.

hot new fun thing to do besides napster: blame people. like amnada for deleting my earlier entry [even tho she really didn't have much to do with it...]. or alex for reminding me about allll our homework and ruining the napster buzz. try it! start out small and easy with your parents. then move on to government...and then up and up and up and UP!

ok. i feel so fucking sorry for my poor messed up little brothers. my dad finally woke up [he's down for the week] and he's not feeling well so he went back to where he was staying. they wanted to play a board game w/ kathryn [who's home from university this weekedn] and she said 'after she reads a few chapters'. mom said no...she had spent the entire afternoon in the kitchen, she was going to take a bath. but then her friend called and wanted mom to go meet her for coffee. so off she went. what a great fucking support system my brothers have. no one but me to decorate easter eggs with them. how fucking sad. i feel so badly for my brothers so often. because mom and dad are older now...dad will be 53 next month. mom's 45. and they are not as sprightly as they were when my sister and i were young. but i mean... COME ON! the whole entire family [all 6 of us] is under one roof...and they can only find one older person to supervise an annual holiday activity? they have both parents for once, and BOTH older sisters...and how many made time for them? christ.

woah is this radiohead? the new morning bell sounds like someone's farting 'motion picture soundtrack'...and then some alien language comes in. which doesn't seem to be thom yourke. but some seconds i almost hear some thomness....perhaps it's wrongly labelled? i can hear an accent that does not sound british....wait! the drums are cool! ....and the pyramid song is fanfuckingtastic!

saap1401 05:07 p.m.
--entry accidentally deleted. blame amanda. i do.--

frap1301 01:15 a.m.
i'm obsessed.

where is napster when you need it? i. have. to. get. my. hands. on. some. jj72.

weap1101 06:17 p.m.
&ohyes: it's meant to be. they updated ON MY BIRTHDAY. they love me. they really do. (cos they hardly EVER update.EVER.)

weap1101 05:59 p.m.
ok. i know i still have to write about my birthday, but PLEASE cut me some slack i am dead sick and have missed 1.5 days of school. when i find a spare moment..erm, HOUR i may be able to tell the long and confusing, but definitely entertaining story of my birthday weekend.

barg. having said that...i am posting here and i will be a hypocrite for posting there 2 dozen times and not here. shush. i can do what i want it's my keyboard (?). i am very happy to be back with my former crew. i missed them desperately. even tho they never went away or anything...it just.....felt....shut up.

moap901 10:52 p.m.
happy birthday me. and thank you so very very much to EVERYONE who wished me happy birthday in my book or sent me an icq card [thanks laura!] or umm...THREW ME A FREAKIN' SUPRISE PARTY [alex, honey, ...you can have my first born] and jsut generally everyone who made efforts to make this birthday very nice despite the fact that i am so sick at this moment and i wrote and failed a surprise chem quiz and it rained all day and there was a spider on my plate at dinner. yes. mercimercimerci!

unfortuanetly... i do NOT have time right now to tell you about my very adventurous last few days. i think tomorrow i will post whta i got for my birthday and take down my lsit...for all to see.

monday's child. full of face. [that's me. are they saying i'm pretty...or i have a fat face? i am either complimented or seriously not amused...]

barg. everyone is so nice to me and sometimes i don't understand it. i'm jamie's favorite bean despite still owing her an email from january [bad colleen], and dre thinks i'm cool and she doesn't have any obligation to say or think so.

things are so...massive sometimes. massive i tell you.

/colleen. who is now 17.

frap601 03:15 p.m.
frap. teehee. that means 'to hit' in french. except spelled differently.

so. the observant ones have noticed the content/layout change. the content is extrememly hard to view. but ask me if i care. i will probably say no.

alex has been bugging me to put up my birthday list for a while now. how helpful is it 3 days before my birthday? not very.

and kyd.net needs to talk to my hand. i got a kyd.net book cos i was tired of having to manually add the entries to gbook.nu. and now i find my gbook.nu book works better than my kyd.net, cos at least you can ACCESS my gbook.nu book! so anyway. they're both linked. use the gbook.nu one til kyd.net recovers from the beating i am so close to administering it.

today is friday. and i had art. every friday in art we can listen to music. my friends and i sort of rotate bringing cds for music day. it was my week this week. for some reason, i feel like i need to bring my newest cd. whatever. so i brought '13' by blur, my newest cd, altho it's almost a month old. we can listen to 3 tracks. i chose coffee and tv, trailer park, and trimm trabb. so i didn't get to the cd player fast enough to be first. this phlegmy guy [who has been SNORTING his phelgm back up his nose for the part week or so. and it's all i can do not to shout at him to use a GEE DEE KLEENEX!] put in the offspring's newest cd. and played the same 3 tracks he played LAST TIME. honestly, it's like he WANTS to get in trouble. like he PURPOSELY brings all the swearing ones. it was funny cos our art teacher [who is...strange. and this is coming from me... she's not cool strange. she's a square. ] saw jj [the snorter] putting in his cd and she looked at cherakee and gave her this 'oh god no...' look and did the same to amanda, and then actually reminded the class in her nasal drone "ahhh.....everyone gets 3 songs. is there anyone else who has music to listen to today?!?!?!" she almost pleaded. i put up my hand. i know other people had music, but didn't put up their hand. here's the thing: jj cut off trimm fucking trabb to put in...[oh lord, wait for it...]LIMP BIZKIT! arrrgggg-g-g-g-g-gZANZIBAR! and again, he played the SMAE THREE SONGS he played last time he put in limp bizkit! 'my way' 'rollin'' and this other one. first of all...why did you cut off my beloved trimm trabb when it was clearly still playing? and second, WHAT IS WITH EVERYONE LISTENING TO THE SAME SONGS EVERYWEEK? always the same destiny's child songs....always the same songs! why would you want to listen to the same thing week after week? i make it a point to bring a different cd each time it's "my turn". i've so far brought in Belle and Sebastian, Sloan, and Blur. i can guarantee you, i will bring in something different in 3 weeks time [probably whatever i get for my birthday. i hopehopehope i get Mwng...i'm curious to see how well welsh powerpop bookends destiny's child and limp bizkit...]

so my birthday is the next schoolday. monday. and i haven't received one fucking birthday card from ANYONE. why is that relatives think that you only get excited or care about your birthday when you're young? sure i'll be 17 come monday. but you have to understand i am permanently 6 on the inside. i would bring cupcakes and whoopie pies to school monday if i could, but that would involve feeding every single person i have a class with that day, cos in highschool there's no homeroom anymore. damnit. and mom...she pressures me to have a party [i compromised and told my friends casually if they wanted to stop by after school to watch me open my presents. and maybe have cake or...SOMETHING they could.] and won't accept that i'm not having one. she like...tries to PENALIZE me for not having a party. she won't decorate the dining room. i asked her to buy powerpuff girls party decorations and stuff...for the dining room where my family will eat my specially requested birthday supper [i think i'm gonna ask for russian chicken this year.] and cake. i wanted a powerpuff girls table cloth. i know powerpuff girls balloons, streamers and everything else is not available in bridgewater....but we have streamers and balloons, so it doesn't matter. and she said "if you're not having a party i'm not spending money on that. it's a waste of money" which is SO not like my mother...she's a very generous person. she only said it to pressure me into relenting and having my friends over [which i won't do]. my mother, the blackmailer. and i've TRIED to explain it to her...even if i wanted to have a party i CAN'T. i don't know if i've ever made it clear in SNOGGED or not, but i have two groups of friends. we all used to be a BIG group of friends. until my birthday party LAST YEAR. and i'm sure if i invited everyone they'd be very good and polite and behave and everything. but it would be too fucking uncomfortable and ruin the damn party for me, because i would be nervous throughout the entire thing. and plus...i jsut feel that it would be exceptionally hard on alex...cos there's only one of her, and 3 of them. i like them all. they all like me [hopefully]. but they don't all like each other. SEE MY DELEMNA? MOTHER DOESN'T. and so...i have to go buy my own damn powerpuff girl party supplies. which is not the type of thing you expect to hear from a soon to be 17 year old.

barg. i am so boring lately. sorry.

i work tomorrow 12-3. i'm going up to alex's tomorrow night to watch wonder boys and stuff. i will bake something and take it up. which is needless cos alex's mother is...part keebler elf or something, and there's always an assortment of exotic baked goods. [her frankenstein hybrid experimental baking. i swear everytime i'm up there, alex offers me something with a name like "banana-nut-chocolate-cheesecakemuffinpieturkeybreasts". like she took 5 different baked goods and stuck 'em in a blender.] and then sunday, i have to work on our music video for drama. we still have to write our freaky art nouveau song. and they all came over this week and banged on my piano and drumset but nothing of use came out of it. jake says he got something going on his guitar. altho we didn't get a song accomplished on wednesday, i shared this idea i've had kicking around for awhile for the video. and they seemed to like it. of course, everyone added their own little flourishes and expanded on it. but that's a good thing. inputs a good thing. however, input leads to strife and powerclashes. today in drama the newest tug of war is should we have extras [i say no. it would complicate everything.] & what should we wear [i think everyone eventually agreed on all black, but for a moment it was thought we should wear crazy things. i think all black is a bit corny. i say we jsut wear regualr, nondescript clothing. 3 cheers for shirts and pants! and buttons and sipeprs! cloth and stitching!]. oh yeah... jake also thinks we should "write" the video. but i think that may be a step we don't have to do. just plan shots and then improvise some on the days we film. actually, a significant portion of music videos are made like that. "artist wears variety of cool outfits while lipsynching in front of a bunch of offbeat locations. acts indelibly cool. video takes shape during editing." yep. i see a bad moon a' risin'....

thap501 06:18 p.m.
/NEWSFLASH TO PHLEGMATIC PEOPLE
---if you have phlegm, and you cough once, twice and a third time...rattlerattle and shake it loose, then do not, do freakin' not either a) spit it out in you hand in public b) HOLD it in your mouth awhile and swish it around until you're NOT in public and THEN spit it out or c) VISIBLY swallow it down again. i'm sorry, i KNOW that doesn't leave you with a lot of options...so.....maybe you just shouldn't exist. alright? ok. glad we cleared that up.

oh...and no 'HOOOCCCK'ing either. really. basically, make no reference to the prescence of your phlegm whilst in the company of others. choke on it and die if you have to...just don't let on it's in there.

i'm sorry. it had to be said.

weap401 11:55 a.m.
weap? barg.

so i'm home during my spare. SUPPOSEDLY doing work cos i find it hard to work in the newspaper room [i'm easily distracted.], however i haven't done a damn thing yet except make and eat kraft dinner and read sarah's blog and laugh at her crackwhore dreams. ANYWAY, i only turned on the computer in the first place because my position paper on WW1 is due in history today. i finished it up last ngiht, however mom went to bed really early and i wanted her to have a look at it for me. so i printed it off and thought i'd have her look at it this morning and then correct anything now and print it off for history this afternoon. which is what i did. and i'm sitting here looking at her suggested corrections. and i'm feeling personally attacked by each and every one of them! i'm such a bitch. taking it all personally. and refusing to change, like ANYTHING because i like my way better, damnit. grammer can go fuck itself! it sounds cooler the way i wrote it, MOM! mr. lecain would appreciate it better the way i wrote it. i'm positive...

and my brother is refusing to eat lunch cos we have not much to eat at the moment [moms going in a minute to the grocery store...]. and he's actually CRYING about it. he had the choice of bologna, bologna SANDWICH or peanut butter sandwich. all things he likes [my brother only ever likes 4 foods at a time.] but he doesn't like feeling fenced in, i guess. but there's really no need to cry. my family members are emotional fuckups. seriously. each and every one of us hennans are disturbed in one way or another. even the young ones. we're psychos, the whole lot of us dirty hennans!

yeah. and i have math to do. crud.

tuap301 08:15 p.m.
colleen has just had coffee for the first time in her life. and all she wants to do is spit. why do you people drink that shit? AND HOW? oh yuck.yuckyuckyuck. it was put in front of me and i'm a polite girl so i valiantly drank 3/4 of it.

i will never drink coffee [and all it's related beverages, cappucino, iced cappucino...espresso...blahblah...]again.

i never wanted to drink coffee once in my life! but now, i have. and it only reaffirmed my belief that i should never do it again.

i gotta go brush my teeth.

moap201 07:45 p.m.
i guess i can't pin WW1 on the Vatican. poop. i was sorta hoping to. cos no one was really to blame! everyone did stupid regrettable shit that contributed to the war.

grrr. i'm still hoping to go with antartctica for my WW1 position paper. that is due in 2 days. crapola.

i KNOW my birthday is in exactly a week and THUS it would be way too late for ebaying but i've jsut found a bunch of wicked stuff. it's been dry for supergrass stuff on ebay for awhile:
-this 1995 Q w/ supergrass on the cover. however they won't sell to foreigners or canadaians. crud.
- that 21 track supergrass rarity album that some german guy was selling a while back. however, this time it's a frickin DOLLAR!
-may 99 NME w/ supergrass on the cover.

no fuckin fair.
/colleen

moap201 04:21 p.m.
no pictures today. sorry. i was almost peeing myself with excitement as i got the digital camera out this morning and started trying to take pictures. it said low battery, but it ALSO indicated i had 44 minutes left. after 6 or 7 pictures [3 i deleted cos i was accidentally in greyscale. which was pointless if i wanted to show my hair colour.] it died. i put the battery in the charger and we'll try again tomorrow.

blah. blah. i had stuff tos ay. but now i forget. i'm so damn hungry. no one called me pylon head today at school, which is a good thing.

i am strong arming my brother's music taste. he's 8.5 now, shouldn't he have formed some sort of musical preference? besides Prozzak and a brief interest in the backstreet boys? i will lock him in my room with my cds for however long it takes him to realise what good music is. today was parts of kid a [he decided that's what he wanted to lsiten to today], 'fitter happier' from ok computer, and a song or two off thrush hermit's 'smart bomb.' last night i put ok computer on for him while he took his bath, and then we listened to some of 'when the pawn' and some of 'the ego has landed'. all over the place. he likes the faster, more upbeat, catchy/percussive songs. so i oblige.

barg. i had way more things to say. dude...i wish i knew english right good like.....heeeee-YUK.

/colleen

sama3101 06:26 p.m.
doot do doot do doo.

so. i sit here with new hair. i actually SPOKE UP this time and told my coolcoolcool hair dresser my idea. and she did it. exactly what i wanted. i gave her these instructions: i want to look like a lit matchstick.

muhaha. and a lit matchstick i am. [a red called 'emergency' with orange streaks. yessssssssss.]

and then we had dinner in the mall. and everyone stared at me. oi. altho, my hair is neon. that'll take some getting used to. monday, i'll see if i can get some digital camera shots. the other day i went downtown to the bank and stuff and stopped in at the stationers which is going out of business. big sales. i got a 10 pack of discs for the digital camera @ school. so i can stop pestering amanda to bring hers. i labelled all 10 "colleen's amateur child pornography" which was SO amusing at the time...but let's hope they don't fall into the wrong hands.

so last night was cherakee's non-birthday party. it was a birthday party and it wasn't. we had lemon merinque pie instead of cake. no one sang happy birthday. but we gave her our birthday presents. cherakee's present arrived yesterday @ lunch. grr. just in time. i got home from school early yesterday [report cards....] and set to work and within an hour had baked fudge brownies, fudge and a double batch of chocolate sauce. suddenly i was june cleaver with a bad attitude. i gave cherakee the sauce in a mason jar, and put the fudge and brownies on a platter and brought them all over to cherakee's. we decided to eat at the newly renovated zeller's restaurant. now before you say ANYTHING...it's now a 50's diner and although the food was not terribly great [i had spaghetti and meatballs. i bit into a meatball to find it cold inside. yuck. i didn't finish.] it was a cool cool place and we had fun and generally made nuissances of ourselves. our waitress had the weirdest laugh. and jake put the entire mama's and papa's greatest hits album on the jukebox. after we were done we wandered around the mall. stopped to talk to alex in northern refelctions. tried to play 'spy' by following this guy we know from school around. we are NOT very good spies. he'd turn around and everyone would dash into a store screaming. real subtle. we went to shopper's to buy amanda some generic brand anti-nauseant. she has been ill for the past couple days and she was starting to feel really sick again. she just sat herself right down in the middle of zellers while we were making our way towards the door to leave. once we got back to cher's, amanda decided that yes, she felt jsut that shitty and sadly must go home. we quickly opened presents and said good night to amanda. cher jske and i had birthday pie and talked to cherakee's badass mother. we gathered up all the food and went down to cherakee's room. hung around a bit then put in 'charlies angels.' i had cher and jake brush my hair [to give my poor hairdresser a break. it had been at least a month since i'd brushed.] and fended off cherakee, who was desperate to put makeup on me and take a picture cos my hair was GASP brushed. jake bought sour poprocks which we ate, and took pitures of our sour reactions. eventually we settled into bed but didn't really go to sleep til nearly 6. cos it was really hot with all those people in cher's bed. and jake wouldn't shush. he was feeling like pontificating. but i wasn't really tired, so whatever....i ended up on the floor cos the heat and jake's snoring was too much.

so report card. it's generally a good report card. my average is 87, which is honours. i beleive my mark has falled like, 0.6, even tho i came up in the important subjects like math and chem:
MATH=73 (+11)
DRAMA=88 (-6, due to nazi-like teacher. grrrr.)
HISTORY=86 (+1)
ENRICHED ENGLISH=89 (+2)
LAW=85 (-3)
ART=85 (-3)
CHEMISTRY=69 (+9)
go me. if i can only keep it up and not bomb my exams it looks like honours for colleen.

barg. i surely must have better things to do. homework. daily notes. MIXTAPES! so i should go do something constructive.

/colleen.

&postscript: sorry for the boring entry.

tuma2701 06:22 p.m.
bah...i neeeeeeddddd to stop with the gorillaz.

I GOT SUNSHINE IN A BAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGG!!!;

amanda and i are so obsessed with this song and video. i called her for math questions last night, and she ended up downloading some gorillaz songs WHILE on the phone w/ me. and then i turned on my tv, popped in the video w/ 'clint eastwood' on it and cranked the volume for her. how cool is cartoon damon? amanda personally favors murdoc. whatever.

i added the cd to my amazon wishlist and it's not even out yet. and i am at gorillaz.com listening to the jukebox. i heart it. the gorillaz had a webchat on dotmusic today. i read the transcript and laughed myself silly. it's funny to read it knowing 2-d is actually damon, a man whom is quickly rising to the ranks of 'genius' in my mind.

oh yuck. i have to go eat. i'll see if i can get out of it.

there. i ate the potatoes. i ate the little bit of corn. i had a small bun. but there was NO way i was eating the damn meatloaf. my mom's the only one who likes that shit...why does she insist on making it?

so today in drama we commenced work on our "films" for YTV. my group is cherakee, amanda, and jake. we have tentatively decided to do a music video. but it's the funniest thing about a music video...you need a song. which we will haphazerdly attempt sometime in the near future. i believe i will be drumming. since i have a drum set. but i never quite learned how to play a kit before quitting music and band after grade 9 [shitty NS music program. i used to be a really, really good drummer. fuck. i'm so bitter about that.]. jake will play guitar. amanda might play bass or piano or something. lord, i dunno what cherakee will play...the spoons? a jug? it could be quite the disaster. jake said something about recording the song using his kareoke player. and apparently he has video editing machinery or some sort. anyway, this could all be a grand disaster. it's gotta be done by may 31. we hope the song will just be a bunch of random shit...artpunk. gonzo sounds....like kid a. and the video will prolly reflect that. amanda and cherakee are mainly concerned with looking cool. wearing weird dresses and looking forlorn in the woods somewhere. haha...if they think i'm wearing a dress they got another thing coming. i think the video should be about boredom [cos that's what we do best. it's what we know most about.]. and it should shot in he capital of boredom BRIDGEWATER NOVA SCOTIA! [yeah. gee, i think *that* can be arranged.]altho we wouldn't be a REAL band we'd need a name. amanda wants to call us guernica after the painting. i think that would be a better songtitle cos i think what we want to achieve musically is a sound akin to the visual of guernica. plus i thought up a better group name. so there.

i anticipate many many power struggles in the project. especially since jake actually plays guitar and stuff, and might try to make the song good whereas, we are totally realistic to the fact that he's the only one who can play an instrument. he likes a different sort of music. i don't know how open he'd be to the experimental/artful noise type vibe. he may want to do the allman brothers or big wreck or something. also, he wants to be a director. so i hope there's no clashes in that area. as far as i know we're do this as a group. nothing has been said about anyone directing or anything like that, cos all 4 of us would be in the video. and i don't think i'd be willing to delegate power. i want it to be a joint project. w/ 4 bossy people in charge. how fun.

"i'll have to talk to amanda and cherakee and jake, see if they'll go in on me with something..."-alex. [she meant "in with me ON something." but the freudian slip was dirty and so very funny. i laughed so hard. she was talking about my birthday gift.

useless, but not for long:
/colleen.

moma2601 06:27 p.m.
yes i am a knob. cos i'm back. after pledging to stay away. but i made a new graphic for in here [FINALLY!]...and it kicks ass if i may say so. cowabunga it's old, tho. [yes, i said cowabunga. 80's catchphrases are fun. and if you got a problem with that then you can go suck an egg. muhahah. oh, gleebs...] july '00. yep. it obviously didn't have the snogged bit, and it WAS going to be a layout. but that never happened. i believe that's rose mcgowan's arse cheeks in the hot pants. i amde this not long after getting supergrass' i should coco. what a lovely cd.

bah...and there's a new graphic in the main guestbook. for some reason it's effing huge but i may seek to remedy that. shirley manson was not that huge when i made the graphic. but the last graphic was abnormally large. perhaps it should become a tradition, no? the graphic is pretty plain and stoooooopid, but erm...shirley is cool enough to compensate. so why doesn't everyone go and SIGN the guestbook and COMMENT on the size of the graphic if not anything else?

i remembered what i forgot to post earlier. today in drama we had to present our nursery rhymes. a few days ago the teacher passed out nursery rhymes and little slips of paper w/ emotions and stuff on it. i got the 3 little kittens and 'disturbed'. i didn't do a very good job. it was hard. cos was i supposed to be disturb-ING, or like disturbed in the head or disturbed as in shocked/disgusted? i chose a combination of the first 2. i generally came off as very psycho. my eyes hurt afterwards from keeping them all wide and shaky. people were supposed to guess the emotion afterwards, but since my class suck so hard we gave up by the time they came to me. plus, everyone had told their friends anyway. but lord were the majority of my class very off the mark. anything could have been anything. but here is the weirdy part: when i sat down missie tapped me on the shoulder and told me that i reminded her of catherine o'hara. and then seconds later, travis whispered from down the row of chairs that my performance was just like "the mom from home alone." and i ahve no idea how i came off as catherine o' hara. at any rate, travis then had me yell "kevin!". whatever...

hahaha...look at that. i write more in a day then amanda does in a week. i love that feeling of superiority i constantly feel in relation to her. muhahahahaha.

moma2601 04:17 p.m.
i would like this or this haha...i can see amanda getting me the first one cos there's polly jean in it and then cherakee getting tme the second one cos it has pearl jam in it. self serving gift giver bitches! hahaa...oh! late breaking newsflash: scratch that i want THIS more. and it costs less. it's win win really.

ok so i ate a chocolate bar. but i had to really...cos it was a royale, and everybody knows that mom buys mint chocolate bars for me. who would eat it if i didn't? but that's the only one i'm eating.

so i've realised what a busy week i should have. huge chem test tomorrow. don't understand a blessed thing. [predicting shite....don't ask.] i was at extra help, but apparently he can't help me if i don't know how to write chemical equations [which despite my best efforts i can't do.]. so i'm fucked. and not in the good way.

math test wednesday. possible english test sometime this week on the first part of the merchant of venice [which i haven't read.] history assignment due april 4th which i should start on. ENGLISH ESSAY which i need to work on. 2 months of daily notes to get caught up on in case he suddenly asks for them. cherakee's birthday tomorrow [but her party is on friday. i still need to make her the eddie vedder sock puppet. and a birthday mixtape.] i work thursday and have a hair appointment saturday [i'm thinking maybe i'll go red with orange highlights. if that's possible. i'd love random splotches of orange in my hair. it would make me feel like a lit match. which is a good thing.]so...yeah...i'm going to do my best to spend minimal time on here.

/colleen (one of many zeroes)